A pint too Radical!

I loved him I swear!

But not in the way he wanted,

That I tried but dismally failed.

I lost him, and that obviously hurt,

But it helped me realise,

That it’s not love I felt,

But merely a conviction,

A hope, that if I tried hard enough

To alter my standards and expectations,

Then maybe, he would see me,

In the light of a woman to love

Because all he ever said

Was that I was too intellectually masculine a woman

A pint too radical, a bit intimidating,

That he could not picture me submitting,

Because to him, love from a woman

Is reflected in the authority with which

He can handle her!!!!

That about him, broke me!

But for just a moment,

Because I pinched myself to the reality

That no woman is too intimidating

For the man who truly loves her.

And submission, is about respect,

And respect is earned.

It took a while, to let go

Of one who was asking me

To be less of the woman I am

And aspire to be.

I wanted so much to love

But not enough to give up my drive

And determination, to appease the other person!

I’m about self-love,

A respect for self,

That allows me to appreciate

That not every man can love me

Or the destiny that I carry.

And yeah, I don’t blame those

Who fall short of ‘The one’

Because they are trying too,

Maybe just not hard enough

To see that my type of woman

Needs an unusual approach

A rare appreciation, and recognition

That my capacity and power

Don’t make a man less respectable

But rather,

Highly esteemed,

For oh! What sort of man except a rare one,

Can carry a woman so strong,

 Without fear of dropping

Not because dropping her would hurt her

But because other man would scorn his weakness.

I know that out there

Exists that one man that gets this.

And that man, is my soul mate

And I will wait for him!!!